Apologies for my super slacker blogger status these days — I blame it on Summer, but the good news, I’m overcoming my addiction to being busy.
I crave activity and motion in these warmer days, and, sometimes feel guilty for sitting down at the computer to write and blog (even though it is something that brings me joy) — like I’m wasting the precious gift of life that I have been given. And after wasting so many years of my life in an alcohol induced stupor, I am not one to feel great about “wasting time” these days. But, what does that even mean? Is sitting down to read a book, or just “relax,” meditate, write, watch TV, wasting time?! Is engaging in a joyful activity time “wasting?” Or is it allowing my body to rest and recover and enjoy some down time? I am sure it is the later, but I do struggle with an addiction to being “busy.” It is as if I am trying to make up for all the lost years — the years I did pretty much nothing, but experiment with alternate forms of reality through alcohol and other substances. I had no problem “relaxing” then. But now in this “life 2.0” thing I’ve got going on – this second chance at life, as I like to refer to my sober days – I cannot slow down without feeling like something is wrong with me. And yet, I am well aware of the benefits of relaxing. I’ve read articles about our addiction to “busy” and I agree wholeheartedly with them, and, yet, here I am at the beginning of September, acknowledging that I have not written a substantial blog post in months. And, yes, it is partly because I have been out there having fun this Summer (running, swimming, hiking, etc.), but it is also because I struggle with this guilt over “doing nothing,” or “just sitting.” Only in this addicted culture of ours would we actually have to remind ourselves to relax and rest. Perhaps I should get a “remind myself to relax app?!” OY!
Here is a REPOST regarding the addiction to busy.
A great recording on the addiction to “busy”
Thanks, Tim Ferris, for this Tim Kreider recording, “Lazy: A Manifesto.” It is a great rant on the addiction to being “busy” that seems to be EVERY WHERE these days, and a glowing manifesto for being IDLE.